Wow, I got hit big time with a case of the ‘poor me’s’ this afternoon. I wasn’t particularly hungry. But I was wanting to have something more. I was thinking about how carefully I track my food, how I don’t really eat that much (about 1400 cal,) and how, IF I lose weight, it CREEPS off of me, and then it stands in the shadows, just WAITING for a chance to POUNCE back onto me. Okay, I wasn’t really thinking that stuff about the shadows, but it sounds good, doesn’t it?
Its been raining here all day, and at 4:30 it let up a bit, and I thought its now or never. So the rainboots went on, and me and Noah headed out for a walk. Its not that fun to walk in rain boots, but I am ever so grateful to have them. While we walked I was going over all this stuff, trying to think how I could change my thinking. Cause like I said, I wasn’t really hungry, and I wasn’t really craving anything in particular. Just feeling sorry for myself. So I thought about what I had planned for dinner, and I decided I didn’t really want to eat that. It would still be good for tomorrow. And then I thought about what I did want. And I remembered I still had some of that healthy chili in the freezer! And that bag of new high fiber pasta from Trader Joe’s that I haven’t tried yet. So I am allowing myself one extra grain for the day, and will have that for dinner. In the meantime, I walked quite a bit longer than originally planned, and that also made me feel better about myself and my choices.
Okay, so now dinner is over, eating is done for the night. I still came in around 1460 calories. The ‘chili pasta’ was delicious, and was just what I needed(?) I weighed out the pasta, and the chili was already frozen in single serve portions. So no overboard on amounts. Then I had a piece of dried pineapple (after I checked the calories online) and some walnuts for dessert. And back to basics tomorrow. This is just the way it is. Maybe not fair. Maybe tiring, boring, endless. But that’s just the way it has to be for POW’s (previously over weight.) I know from filling out the survey for the NWCR that this is common practice for weight loss maintainers (planning/calculating/tracking food/meals.)
Scenes from the past few days:
As you can see, I am not suffering! This bowl actually looks better than it tasted. Although it was pretty tasty. It is my version of katie’s chocolate oatmeal. I just increased the unsweetened vanilla almond breeze to 1 cup, and left out the banana. I think I added in 1/4 cup of eggbeaters to make it custard oats. Came in around 300 calories for this bowl.
This salad was yummy and easy to assemble. White tuna on top of chopped romaine with some carrots, some crushed pineapple, and a few spiced cashews on top there.
I am right back in the swing of knitting. I found this pattern in my stash, and decided to try it. After sweating bullets over the first couple of rows (lots of counting with a pattern like this,) it all came back to me.
Of course to make a sweater, I have to keep going and make five big pieces. And then sew them together. And pray that it actually fits right. Just reminding myself.
The Queen was in fine form this weekend. Thought I would share what a day looks like for her. (Its exhausting, if you ask me.)
Assuming her position of authority in front of Noah. I truly do not know why she does this, She doesn’t really seem to enjoy it.
She has to endure a little sniffing.
“Just pick me up and get it over with, will you?”
And then a little ear-flipping…
Until finally she’s had enough! (actually, I think she was just starting to yawn here, but the expression on Noah’s face is priceless.)
Then I caught a sweet picture of Mr. Monk by the woodstove.
Oh, no. That will not do at all. ”Here, I can improve that picture for you.”
“Yes, it is exhausting being queen. But SOMEBODY’S got to keep order around here.”
The queen must always sleep with one eye open. Especially if there’s a camera in the area…