Preoccupied

Well, I haven’t posted since last Friday because I couldn’t think of anything grand and glorious to say, and didn’t really want to spend the time thinking about it.  So decided it was okay to just ‘ramble’ like my friend Laura did today, and just report on the events of the past few days.

So, first of all, those of you who check my weigh in page, I know you think:  1)  Debby is a big fat liar, or 2)  Debby needs a new scale.  Can you even believe my weight has stayed exactly the same for 4 weeks??  My scale is actually new and very accurate.  Does it count when I tell you it did register 167.6 on Sunday morning after my two dinners out Friday and Saturday?  So it actually does have different numbers in it besides 163.2.  

So that leads to the dinners out.  First of all, NO MORE BUFFETS.  I really wanted to go out for a really good Chinese dinner.  But my Mom likes the Chinese buffet, and it is not bad, but also not that good, so to make up for it, I end up eating WAY too much.  I just don’t have that much control around food.  I think that’s okay.  I just have to recognize it and accept it as the truth of the situation.  For a while more, or maybe for the rest of my life, I will have to control my food environment as much as possible.  The steak dinner was absolutely delicious.  I didn’t control myself much there either, but it was definitely worthy.

But here is my final thoughts about eating like this after getting home.  I was trying to not have regrets and guilt about eating this way.  After all, I did control everything else–brought lunch and breakfast and snack foods with me.  But the truth is, if I really want to lose weight, I cannot eat like this.  I will have to take a hard line again on eating out for a while.  Obviously, I know this will work okay for maintenance (163.2!)  But not so much for weight loss.  And reading all my friends’ blogs, I think this is the norm, not just peculiar to me.

So, home again.  I LOVE where I live.  I don’t always notice it as much, I take for granted my beautiful surroundings, but this time the stark contrast between the city and the country really hit me.  I am very thankful that I ended up here.


 

   The last three days have been absolutely filled with just chores and stuff.  Catch-up.  I can spend all day cleaning my house, and even get some significant organizing done, and it still looks like a cyclone hit my house.  Well, not exactly, but kinda.  I am always working on being content with my house being ‘clean enough.’  I am pretty convinced that you can’t pursue ‘art’ and have a really really clean house at the same time.  Add in a serious exercise commitment, a generous amount of time for good food preparation, a lot of reading, WAY TOO MUCH TIME reading blogs and looking at stuff online, and FOUR DOGS (what was I thinking?) and oh yeah, I still have to go to work a couple days a week (I work 12 hour shifts, 2 days one week, and 3 days the next week.)

So, all in all, I am happy that I could come home from a weekend and pretty much get back to ‘eating right,’ and getting my exercise in.  100 Pushup Challenge update:  MY GOSH is that hard!  I finished week 2, and had to re-test myself.  Now I can do 13 consecutive pushups without stopping, but that still means I had to repeat week 2 (at a higher level.)

Thought I would share pictures of some of the things that preoccupied my time this week:  rug hooking project, reading, quilt project, washing all four dogs.

4 thoughts on “Preoccupied

  1. Hey woman!! Glad you had a good weekend! This sentence ” But the truth is, if I really want to lose weight, I cannot eat like this” made me think of this story:

    A young man was delivered from a life of self-destruction in the form of drug abuse. He turned from his old ways, but of course was pursued by the enemy and tempted back. It was clear to him that he could not afford to be lenient with himself in allowing the least indulgence in the old habit. One day he said to his pastor, “Don’t ever allow me to use the word ‘struggle.’ Every time I use it I am excusing disobedience, I am really preferring to ‘struggle’ rather than to quit.”

    I am at this place right now, where if I let myself slip even just a little bit, it is 10x harder to get back to eating healthy than it was before. I have come to the conclusion that if I am going to get my weight off, I can’t be lenient either.

    I love all the pics of your projects, and I LOVE the pic of you dogs!! Love that couch too, btw!!

    Way to go on the push ups!! I keep telling myself I am going to start, but things have been so crazy lately. I WILL start it (someday).

  2. Your projects are beautiful.

    This hit me square in the face: “But the truth is, if I really want to lose weight, I cannot eat like this.” I keep losing and gaining the same 3-4 pounds every week. It’s got to stop. During the week my body is a temple; on the weekends, it’s a playground (I read that on the internet somewhere!). I need to stop playing around if I’m ever going to get to where I want to be. Oy.

    Hope your week is going well.

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