Hi all. I just got back from my workout with Vicky (my personal trainer.) Whew, that was hard! And I’m not talking about the exercise that she had me do. I’m talking about being forced to look at myself in the mirror (in not so flattering clothes, in not very flattering positions) for the better part of an hour. Man, that was brutal. First of all, you know how I said I felt fat the other day? Well, guess why I felt that way? Yup. Its true. It was hard to look at my body that is not only fat, but is aging quite horrifically efficiently. It struck me that my whole body looks very much like my dad’s. I really hadn’t put that together before. Oh, well. Its all part of the process. Learning to accept the real me. And continuing to improve how I take care of myself by learning new and better ways to exercise and eat.
Speaking of eating (wasn’t that smooth how I segued into my favorite topic?,) since I didn’t lose weight this week, Vicky suggested cutting out my after dinner high refined-carb snack. I can still have a low carb snack. But I’m not eating for nutrition or hunger after dinner. Its purely because I want to have that particular food at that time–just for a treat. She gave me one out. I could have the high carb snack if I would do a tabata interval before eating it. I foresee a week full of tabata intervals!
Okay, now I’ve taken a little break, and thought about this a bit more while washing the dishes. And this is what this is all about: do you remember that way back when I first started losing weight I said that ‘what I’m doing now is not working. I’ll have to do something different.’ If you remember, in my old life I never ate fruit, not so much because I didn’t like fruit, but because if I ate fruit, I would not have enough room to eat the cookies and candy that I wanted to eat. And then when I started eating fruit, I would mix it with lite cool whip, and call it a fruit sundae. Can you believe I lost most of my weight eating cool whip every day? That does not mean I should go back to eating cool whip so I will lose weight again. All I’m saying is that I need to keep looking at what I’m eating and how I’m moving, and do something different.
I actually really like having Vicky look over what I am eating and making suggestions on how I could change things up a bit. Just since I’ve been seeing her, I can see a big difference in the quality and variety of food I am eating.
Okay, so I came home from the store with some products that I have been reading about for a year, and now I really don’t exactly know what to do with them. But I’m sure I’ll figure it out. I got some agave nectar syrup, some quinoa, and almond butter. I was disappointed that the almond butter tasted a little too much like peanut butter–I was kind of surprised at that. I also saw some coconut oil, but didn’t buy it because I don’t think I use enough oil to justify it. But I notice that a lot of people cook with it. What’s that all about? I also bought a passel of green beans to roast, and okay, I cannot tell a lie, I got some of those fabulous white chocolate macadamia nut Cliff bars. Its better than a box of cookies, I think. (Which reminds me–HUGE NSV yesterday at work–I walked into the breakroom in the morning, and there was a bag of Oreo cookies and I didn’t touch them! Although if they had been Double Stuff Oreos, I might be writing a different kind of blog today!) I also found some cheesecloth, and I am really excited to try to drain my next batch of yogurt to see if I can make a more greek-like yogurt.
Here’s a little delicious snack idea. One cup Original Almond Breeze (60 cal., 8 grams carb. per cup) heated in microwave, and a Bigelow Vanilla Chai teabag. I tried several variations of this, but this one is absolutely perfect. Very satisfying.
I received my Sobe flavored water from the most generous Jill, who spent an exorbitant amount of money to ship water. But I have to say, it was delicious, and a nice treat. A very good way to get your water in. I hope its not too expensive, because I will buy more of it this summer. I also bought one of those body balls (for only $8 at WalMart.) Today Vicky showed me a lot more exercises I could do on the ball, and some nice stretches. So I just got done blowing it up. It wasn’t hard at all–it came with its own pump in the box.
Have a good day, my friends. Take a walk. Enjoy the creation. Be thankful. And never lose hope.