I just want to be a real girl. You know, like Pinocchio dreamed about. Isn’t that what we all want? Maybe that’s the reason for the current interest in intuitive (mindful) eating* in blogland.
When I first started this journey, and it looked like I might be successful, I said I didn’t care if I had to go to W.W. every week for the rest of my life–it would be worth it to keep the weight off (you know, like some alcoholics need to go to AA meetings every week for the rest of their lives.) Along the way, I became a ‘professional’ tracker of food, first points, then calories. And I said I didn’t mind writing down everything I ate for the rest of my life, if it would help me to keep the weight off (you know, like some people with a chronic illness need to take a pill or a shot every day for the rest of their lives.) And I mean it. I would be willing to do these things, if that is what is necessary. But just like Pinocchio, or a former alcoholic, or the person with a chronic illness, I long for ‘normal.’ Gonna give it that old college try. And even if I can’t get there, I am learning new stuff all the time, and it is all beneficial to me.
There were several things I picked up from reading the IE book.
- One was to enjoy the food while I was eating it. They suggest NOT doing anything else while you are eating, so you can focus on enjoying the food. This is hard for me since I live alone. But I have tried to JUST eat and concentrate on the textures and taste of the food. Everything I eat is darn good, so why not enjoy it? And I do like knowing when I am getting to the bottom of the bowl, instead of being surprised when I go for the next bite and there is nothing left!
- Honor your hunger. You know I’ve been working on this one.
- Cope with your emotions without using food. Ugh. Of course, this is nothing new. Its been around FOR YEARS. The media. Oprah. Everybody has been saying, you have to deal with your emotions. But most of the time they seemed to indicate that it was some deep childhood trauma that you had to deal with. Which made me say, I am not an emotional eater. I just love food. But now there have been several books/writers talking about just using food to cope with everyday stuff. And that does resonate with me. Its driving me nuts that I eat so much some days at work. And at home, where there is just as much food available, I am completely in control of what I eat. I just got a new book, Do You Use Food to Cope?, and it is set out like a workbook with 15 weeks to work through. I will probably be mentioning it here for the next few (15) weeks. It is also so helpful to hear individual’s personal experiences with mindful eating. Thanks so much to Miz and Dietgirl for their excellent podcast on all things IE. Christie at Honoring Health is one that I check regularly, and Katy at Health for the Whole Self is another that I enjoy.
I just want to be a real girl.
*BTW, I wanted to point out that intuitive eating is not instinctive eating, which is what I think some people take it to mean. I think intuitive indicates that you take everything you know and understand about yourself and food, and use that information to make the best choices for your whole life. I’ll probably write more about what this means to me later. Because you’ve never heard me talk about this stuff on this blog before LOL.