How could it be that two women, separated by a continent and an ocean, and at least 10 years in age, and probably quite a few pounds, could have the same thought process going on at the same time? I dunno, but it seems like that is what was going on with Wendz and I the past week or so. Wendz wrote much better than I can probably explain about her frustrations with the world of nutriton and weight loss.
I mean, my brain has been SWIRLING. Low-fat, low carb, good grains, bad vegetables, high protein, dairy yes or no, vegan, raw, intuitive, mindful, counting calories or points, journaling, portion control… how IS a person supposed to eat?
Screech…put the brakes on and back up a bit. What REALLY started this whole brain swirl? SIX POUNDS. Six measly pounds. That’s what started it. I decided last fall to make a decision to maintain my weight at a higher level than ‘normal’–168 pounds. That takes a bit of mind work to accept that. To say that is okay. To give up the dream of skinny. And I was still working on processing that when the ‘HOLIDAYS’ hit. Followed by the trip to Africa. The end result was 6 solid pounds of weight gain. Which isn’t a lot different than other people. But when your mind starts swirling–what if this is the beginning of the end? Yeah, its six pounds from 168, but its almost 20 pounds from your lowest weight. And all these people think you’re such a great maintainer. HOW CAN I GET THIS WEIGHT OFF? What’s wrong with me? Why do I keep eating when I’m not hungry? What they say is true–‘its almost impossible to maintain weight loss permanently.’
OH. MY. GOSH. Shut up, debby.
I don’t want to stop eating healthy foods. I’ve been doing great adding in more fruits and vegetables to my daily fare (oops, sorry bout that mention.) And I’m gonna eat ALL the vegetables and fruits that are on the list in my calorie counter book. Well, all the ones I like. As soon as my yogurt and cottage cheese supply runs out, I am going to challenge myself to go dairy free for a week. I will never give up dairy, but it will give me a chance to remember that there are other great foods out there. I might do a nut fast for a week LOL.
I actually WANT to exercise more vigorously than ever. I have plans to get my bike fixed up, and if I ride it X number of miles (haven’t decided yet) I might let myself get a new really cool pink bike like Shelley. And I WANT to swim more this year. Already thinking about what kind of hair I need to make it easy. I tried out a new machine at the gym–think they called it a cross trainer. I thought I was getting in the recumbant bike (to empathize with Shelley) and I was too embarrassed to get off of it–watched a bit of Oprah and worked off 50 calories. I got a cool new sticker from Shelley, and I’m thinking about ‘training’ to walk a half marathon.
I talked to a friend at work. Someone who’s been a healthy weight, eating healthy food, and relatively active for as long as I’ve known her–23 years. And she said she has the same struggles. SIGH…. I felt so relieved after talking to her.
I started reading a new book–Rethinking Thin. Its almost comical that there have been diet theories and people obsessing over their weight for hundreds of years. I think Debra SY is right. There are probably a number of very different reasons that people are overweight. And those reasons probably make maintaining a weight loss different for each of us.
I am going to continue eating the way I’ve (mostly) been eating–whole foods, minimal sugar, minimal wheat, aiming for about 1300-1500 calories per day, journaling my food, goal of 5 vegetables and 3 fruits per day. I do need to be more ‘mindful’ of why I am overeating. (As in, one bark* too many, and debby headed to the chocolate.) If I can, I will try to make small changes each day that might just add up to a weight loss (I keep thinking about how that was one of the first big things I learned at Weight Watchers–that small changes really did make a difference.)
So there you have it. The confusing, obsessive, not-so-glamorous life of a ‘maintainer.’
*I was looking for something else on my blog, and came across this funny post. Man, its funny now, but it sure wasn’t back then. I have improved so much since then, and so has my big boy. Today on the way home from church, I noticed it was 72 degrees outside, so after Noah and I took a 4 mile walk, he finally got a bath!
And a little foodie news. I finally tried that ‘banana soft serve ice cream.’ It is pretty cool how it turns into something that looks a lot like ice cream, using just a frozen banana. I think I’m not a banana fan, so it didn’t really grab me. Also might be better if the banana was REALLY ripe? Here’s how I had it, with a few walnuts, and a little shaved chocolate:
I like this better: 1/2 cup of plain yogurt with a little splenda or sweetener of choice, and 1/2-1 cup of frozen blueberries. Stir them around for a while, and the yogurt starts to freeze and the blueberries start to thaw. Yumm! I usually have it with walnuts mixed in. But in an attempt to make small changes, I will have it sans nuts tonight!
Tonight I tried Lori’s recipe for corn and chicken chili. Very tasty. I had a little avocado on top. Tomorrow I am going to have a little cheese on top of it. I used those mild green diced chilis in a can and it was not too hot at all.
I saw the new movie “The King’s Speech.” Wonderful movie. Great acting. Good story. Beautiful costuming. Thanks for the recommendation, Wendz!