Whoa. Its been a week since I’ve posted! And honestly, I still don’t have much to say. Or rather, much I WANT to say. Life is very good. I am being very creative. And I can’t believe I have this opportunity to spend this much time creating. Its so much better than I even imagined. Maybe that’s why I don’t have much to say. Because, man, I sure have had plenty to say in the past! I was looking through my archives to see if I complained about how dusty it was last August. Didn’t spot any whining, but I found this funny post. And I found a lot of talk about feeling old and having various aches and pains, and being tired.
Which brings me to the one interesting thing I might have to say. I keep saying, and its true, that I haven’t felt this good (physically) in a long time. I feel very strong when I am walking/hiking. I enjoy doing the weights when I get to the gym, and once I got back into the swing of swimming, I feel like I could go a lot longer than I do. I’m not 100% sure, but I think I feel this good because I have pared back my exercising a bit. I’m no longer trying to run. If we take a morning walk (I have to admit that I’m not too motivated to take the morning walks between the deer flies and the dust) it is for 30 minutes, and our evening walks are usually 40 minutes. I cut back on the super heavy weights I was doing, and am doing more reps on some of the exercises. I limit my time on the weights to 30 minutes, and time in the pool is also 30 minutes.
But in contrast with that ‘feeling better than I’ve ever felt’ are the internal mini-freakouts screaming “I CANNOT BE THIS FAT!” So there’s the conundrum. Oh, that was a different conundrum. which, BTW, I don’t eat those bars much any more. I prefer these for my chocolate chip cookie fix.
Back to the freakout. I don’t want to say the f– word twice in the same blog entry. It brings up that question again, about whether or not vanity is a viable motivation for weight loss, or more importantly, weight loss maintenance. Judging by the evidence–in blog land, celebrity land, and my own experience,–it seems the answer is no, vanity is not a viable motivation for weight loss. Good health doesn’t even seem to be able to motivate people. Maybe pain? Is that a motivational factor? Well, truth is, as always, its a very complex issue.
This article was very interesting to me. If his theory is true–that ‘obesity needs treatment forever,’ then the supporting information about how difficult it is for patients to stick with a treatment regimen for chronic disease is very sobering information indeed. But you know what? Its also encouraging to me. Because I am continuing with my ‘treatment regimen’ for my ‘chronic disease.’ Still tracking what I eat. Still choosing whole foods, with lots of fruits and veggies, especially this summer! Still getting that exercise in mostly on a daily basis. Right now I’m being very serious and weighing once a week (Saturday’s weigh in: 176.8) Checking in regularly with my accountability partner. And of course, usually chatting ad nauseum with you all about the thrill of victory and the agony of defeat in the weight loss/maintenance journey.