Well, it seems like forever since I wrote here. I still don’t have much to write about. Plus its so cold and it seems like my hands are permanently frozen. Not much motivation to type.
I’ve been staying on track with my healthy eating, mostly bobay plan (which is a carb cycling type of plan,) and I have most definitely kept up with my newly defined “I am an active person.” I told my BFF about this proclamation, and she said, “Debby, you ARE an active person already.” And I said I know, but now I want to be. That seems different to me than just fitting in activities/exercise because that’s what’s necessary to keep the weight off. I think that’s partly why I stuck that sentence in there about “If being a little heavier is part of this, so be it.” I am going to be active because I want to be active, NOT because I want to look a certain way or fit a certain size. Does that make sense? And does anybody else think its weird that it has taken me seven years to come to this point?
So between being active and having too many new games on my Kindle Fire, creativity is a bit stalled. Must work on that trait next.
Today, in between the five loads of laundry that are all folded and put away, I started a new knitting project. I started it because ever since I taught Shelley how to knit, well, before that even, I’ve been thinking about knitting again. And I had a whole bagful of beautiful white yarn (that was previously an almost finished fisherman knit sweater in my former size 26-28!) But while I sat there knitting (and Shelley, do you know how long it takes to get through a row of 195 stitches) I started thinking really negative thoughts about myself. Why are you starting a new project that you’ll probably never finish? Why are you sitting here, when you could be doing so many other things that need to be done? You’re never going to get around to getting chickens (topic for another day.) There were a lot more negative thoughts, and they are quite common, I realized. They go on every day. And if I hadn’t started knitting that sweater, negative thoughts about what a waste–all that good yarn and you just never get around to knitting it. What’s wrong with you? would have been added to the mix. So I did stop with those particular negative thoughts and realized that I was doing something positive that I had thought about for quite a while. Its exhausting to be me.
I have consciously worked (mostly through this blog) on not indulging in negative thoughts about my weight. I feel like I’ve made major progress in that area. But these others…I’m gonna have to put a stop to them. Probably has a lot to do with the major changes in my life in the past year. I have a pretty good daily/weekly routine down, but it is very different than my life a year ago.
Well to end this post on a positive note, we (Wendy and I, and our project, “The Bridge,” for the kids of Carrefour Poy, Haiti,) had a stupendous day at church yesterday. We did another presentation in front of the church. Wendy had made a slide show of some of the kids and the scenes in the village (I was so nervous I forgot to look behind me to see it.) There was such a positive response. Since starting this in mid-December, we already have sponsors for 23 kids. I was just elated when I realized how much money this would enable us to send to the pastor down there to help with their school. There is a lot of work involved, but I am more than happy to be able to do it. This is what I was looking for when I retired. Only then I didn’t even know what I was looking for. Just being open to God’s leading. I started out telling Wendy that I didn’t think I could sponsor another kid, and for sure I was never going to Haiti. Guess who has another little girl to pray for, and guess who is going to Haiti, probably sooner than later. There are just a lot of details that we could take care of that are difficult to do long distance. Plus, I want to see for myself, and look for what else we can do to help. I am very excited about how this project is going. Wendy came up with a verse that describes exactly how things have been happening since we started:
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Tomorrow is sewing day, and guess who is bringing the food! I made Helen’s recipe for the Coconut Curry Kale Soup with Shrimp, and I looked up a recipe for low fat cornbread that sounds simple and delicious, and quite reasonable calorie-wise. It just seemed like a good pairing. And for the morning I am going to make that delicious Triple Berry Granola Crisp. I got it covered with healthy food for the day!
And now, as one of my favorite bloggers, Mr. Taylor, says, “Its back to the sofa” to knit one more row on that new project.