Honestly, for the past few days, I’ve been thinking that I was doomed. Doomed to gain all my weight back, I mean. Just what I feared from the very start–that it would all disappear, and I would go back to the way (weight) I was before, just like in the movie “Awakenings.” And I’ve been trying to figure out what to say about it.
Make no mistake about it. I have been in a gaining trend. And this past weekend when I was out of town, I was very unhappy with my image in the mirror. I know. All that stuff I’ve said about accepting my body image… I’ve had some stressful stuff to deal with the past two weeks, and there were a couple of times I COULDN’T STOP EATING. Believe it or not, the stress was more about other people and things that were out of my control, instead of the anxiety that used to make me overeat. Even when I wasn’t stressed, I was just eating a little too much.
So I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know I had one good day today. I wrote down my four meals and one snack and stuck right to them. (Ha–I should probably eat my last snack and go immediately to bed so the spell won’t be broken!) I chose low calorie, nutrient dense foods so I wouldn’t get too hungry between meals. And I even thought a little bit about ‘its okay to be hungry.’ And tonight when I was working on a new experimental low calorie recipe for dinner just because that’s what I wanted to eat, I thought, well, this isn’t the behavior of a person who has given up. So we’ll see.
That recipe I was making? Turned out pretty darn good! I was inspired by Helen’s cauliflower recipe and the fact that I had a head of cauliflower in the refrigerator. I didn’t have any of the other ingredients in her recipe though, so I tried something different. Mexican Cauliflower Pork Casserole. Quite yummy! And a big serving, and when I plugged the ingredients into caloriecount, I was very happy with the stats on it.
(Honestly, sometimes I think a lot of my food pictures look like cat food, but you’ll have to take my word for it–they taste good!)
A few other good food ideas from the past week:
Pina Colada Yogurt. Just a serving of my homemade yogurt with a teaspoon of unsweetened coconut and a little coconut extract, topped with some crushed pineapple and a sprinkle of granola.
I am in love with turkey burgers. And honestly, I like them just as much without the bun, plus, they’re a whole lot less messy to eat.
Okay, this one veers into processed food a bit, but it sure was a tasty combo. A serving of strawberries with a spray of reddi whip light on top, paired with a caramel rice cake (50 calories.) Yumm yumm.
I am fascinated with the little froggies that appear at my front door. This little guy has perched up on the door knob for the past two days. How did he get here all by himself, and why does he like it up there? I worry about him.
And finally, an update on the sheep rug. I was very pleased when I took it off the frame to take these photos. It looks better from a distance than I thought. Still a lot to do, but I am making steady progress now. Of course, rug camp is in 2 1/2 weeks, so I don’t think I’ll finish it.
Close-ups. I dyed some of the wool for the grass myself, so I am very happy about how that turned out. I used some angora sweaters, so that adds a neat texture to it. (Rugs are traditionally hooked with plain wool.)
So that’s about it for tonight. I have some busy, packed, slightly stressful days ahead. I am glad I have some food pre-cooked for ready-to-eat meals.