Why do people think the scale is bad but don’t think millions of mirrors (at the gym) are bad?
What set me up to ‘comfort’ myself with food? Could it have been the fact that my parents always had to have a second bottle of formula warmed up and ready to go so that when I finished the first bottle they could give me the second before I started screaming? Is this an example of ‘imprinting’ behavior on a human being?
Well, as you can see, I am working my way through the ‘Do You Use Food to Cope?’ workbook. I am determined to continue on and work through this (maybe last?) roadblock to permanent weight maintenance and peace with food. This gal’s thoughts are pretty much in tune with the IE line of thought. Its just that this book is obviously big on the food/emotion connection and is set up as a 15 week workshop to work through that. Its almost funny that at the same time, I had an appointment with a counselor at work to talk about some of the things that are bothering me at work. My FIRST EVER visit to a counselor! So what was funny was that I said I wanted to talk about this specific issue at work, and I wanted to talk about ‘I want to retire.’ So I guess I blathered on like I do here, and then she would say to me, now tell me about _____. And I would think ‘what the heck, is she reading my mind?‘ But I had just mentioned something in passing and she picked up on that. So we discussed A LOT more than what I went in for. You know me. I just wanted simple solutions to these two complex problems. Anyways, between her and this darn book, its got me thinking about stuff that irritates/frustrates/stresses/angers me. And wondering whether I should address these things a little more. I just don’t want to be somebody who blathers every emotion they feel the moment they feel it. Not necessary, IMO.
Okay. Back to the IE stuff. This book also tells you to get rid of the scale early on. So I did. Well, its still in the bathroom. But its getting pretty dusty. Now, a week or two ago, I was thinking this way: I know my weight is up, but I don’t care. Not as in ‘I don’t care, I’m gonna eat my way back up the scale to my ‘natural weight of 255’ (that’s a little IE humor.) But as in, “I don’t care, I am a 55 year old woman who is very strong and has great endurance and eats an extraordinarily healthy diet.” It felt really good to feel that way. Very freeing. But this week I feel a little more like, ‘uh, oh. I am definitely gaining more weight than I want to. Don ‘t like certain unnamed items of clothing being this tight.’ Interesting thing about IE and this book is that they are very firm on saying that your body will reach its natural weight, but they just refuse to address anything about what is a healthy weight.
But for now I am going to continue on this path. It would be nice to not have to battle with myself every time something stresses me out and I want to eat in response. And I can see how if I could overcome this, I WOULD lose the weight again. You simply can’t lose weight when you have a ‘bad’ day once or twice a week. (sorry for using the ‘bad’ word in regards to eating…)
Okay. Now, on the other hand, I also have some very strong thoughts about the whole IE/anti-IE camps. Have you heard the word ‘comorbidities?’ Defiintion: two or more coexisting medical conditions. Yes. And I think that is exactly what is going on in many severely overweight people. Or we could use that horrible but very descriptive medical term: morbidly obese. So if a person has comorbidities, both conditions must be treated. Both are sometimes equally as critical in needing treatment. And sometimes brilliant doctors will disagree on the exact treatment plan. Most people who are morbidly obese have several comorbidities*. And they all require treatment. IE is possibly not going to be able to treat all of those conditions. A diet ‘plan’ or ‘program’ is probably not going to be able to treat all of those conditions. And we all know that diet alone or exercise alone is not going to be able to treat all of those conditions.
So. Continuing on. ‘My counselor,’ (I like to call her that) picked up on the fact that information is important to me. And for me, in this area of my life, that has been to read and explore information about what has helped others to successfully lose and maintain weight loss, and to learn as much as I can absorb about nutrition and exercise. If I was to choose a single piece of literature that has had the most positive impact on any success I have achieved, it would be the Nutrition Action Healthletter. It is published by the Center for Science in the Public Interest. No ads. No conjecture. No promises of ‘instant miraculous painless weight loss.’ Just the facts, ma’am. Some of those facts are good and exciting. Some of them scared me enough to make me stop eating hamburgers.
Come back tomorrow for MORE food talk. You know I can’t stay away from that topic for too long!
*and you all understand here that I am not talking about stuff like high blood pressure, diabetes, or joint pain. I am talking about whatever it is that made us eat enough to become morbidly obese.